Everything happens for a reason..

This face. It gets me everytime! Andrew and I tried since the day we got married to get pregnant. Things don't always work as planned, and it was hard for me to deal with. Anytime I would see a baby on tv (to much a baby story on my days off!) I would just sit and cry! I wanted what they had soo bad! I would sit and wonder why? why not me, though I secretly new why, I knew if I got my shit together and lost the extra weight I was carrying that it would hopefully happen for us. It was hard to here people ask, when are you going to have kids? If only they knew... It was hard to deal with, I always knew that I wanted to be a mom, have lots of kids, I hated wondering "why me? why not us?" But I never should have doubted. I should have known that when the time is right, whats meant to happen would happen. I was able to lose some of the weight, (with some wonderful help from some great people) and when the time was right and I stopped fretting over it happening, it did. And 3 1/2 years later we got the best news of our lives! Ever since then I have been blessed with that face. And it was the right time, it all happened when it was suposed to, it was the right time, and I couldn't be happier to have such a wonderful little boy! I guess the point of this is that things happen for a reason when the time is right, if it is meant to be, it will be. But we do also need to take responsibilty for the things that we want and do what we can to make them happen. So I know that I need to lose this weight...again, so that if we decide to we can have more children, for my health, to keep up with my very active little boy, for my sanity, for my self esteem, then I need to make it happen, because when you show that you can put in the effort and make it happen then the things that just happen, happen just a little easier! I hope this makes sense... I guess really the moral of this is that I love Logan very much, and I want to be here for him and give him everything he needs in life... like siblings.... if need be it... I don't know, I guess really I am just rambling.. I hope everyone has a great day!

The month of May...

I hate to start something on a sad note but if you believe in prayer PLEASE pray for Kayleigh's family, http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com/ she passed away last night, way to soon, and I could not imagine what they must be going through! She was a precious little angel and her story I know has touched thousands of peoples lives, as well as mine, I honestly look at life and my son diffrently now, I relieze how blessed I am to have him, and I've learned how the little things really don't matter, who cares if he throws his food all over the floor, or won't stay out of the cd cabinet, or has to be right on top of you where ever you go, he's here, I get to expierence all these wonderful things that make him my little boy! Unfortunetly not everyone is so lucky. Isn't amazing how one little angel can change the way you look at life!

Of course it has been way to long since I have posted anything on here.. What can I say, I am horrible about these things! Since last time I have started school and am taking 3 classes right now..(so at least I have a somewhat good excuse of why I haven't posted!) Andrew got his fishing license and has been going every chance possible! No big catches yet, but with our schedules not very many oppritunities have come about! I bet he can't wait for Logan to be old enough to be able to go out with him! Logan's friend Seth turned 3 this month and had his birthday party at Chuck E Cheese's, Logan LOVED it!

How lucky am I to have these 2 great guys! Logan and I have started walking a couple of days a week at the local parks with my new found friend Alisa and her 2 adorable little girls Launa (2) and Ruby (1), so Alisa and I get to walk and then the kids get to play it up on the toys for a while afterwards! Its been alot of fun, and I love Logan being able to interact with other kids! So I AM going to lose all this weight AGAIN! I have too, no more exscuses! I want to be able to run, and look good, and feel good! I feel like I have been changing soo much lately (I think for the better) that now is as good a time as any! Also now I have to do it cuase I posted it on here and I dont want to look like a quitter! LOL Only 9 more days until I leave for New York with Kim! I can't tell you how excited I am to go.. yet how completely nervous I am about leaving my Logi Bear!! Not that I don't think he will be taken care of, I know he will, Andrew's sister, Chanell, will be up here so I am sure she will help him out, but I have never been away from him for this long, and especially that far away! I will just have to keep busy!! I will have to post pics once I get back, but until then I will leave you with some super cute pictures of Logi Bear! Until next time, everyone take care, and let the ones you love know you love them, life is just to short not to!!