Logan's future harley...

Sooo.... lately it's been tough. Thats all I really want to say about it, it's been tough. Why dwell on it, that won't change it. But you know what they say... "when it rains, it pours..." "it has to get worse before it gets better..." I'm thinking positive though... my favorite time of the year is just around the corner, fall, ome, I just love the thought of fall, the feeling of it! ( the only thing I don't like about it is how it gets dark earlier... oh and that it means winter is coming...rrrr...) I start my 2 classes I will be taking this quarter on Sept. 23rd... I really need to figure out what it is I want to do... and the sooner the better... my goal is to get the house all cleaned by then so that it will be one less stress for all three of us around here... I can't wait to go to the fair, I think that Logi will understand and enjoy it soo much this year, I can't wait to go pick out pumpkins, to figure out what Logi is going to be for halloween, to decorate!, to light my pumpkin spice candles, to plan Katy's halloween party, for "NEW MOON" lol!! There are so many good things can be ahead, and I am going to do my best to embrace those things.

This though, was the highlight of my day....

Logi picked out his first harley when he and Abby came to visit me at lunch today, I think a sportster is a great starter for him! ( And I bet if he could tell you he'd say he loves the horn!!)

-If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain. -Maya Angelou

Oh No! I've got the Baby Fever!

OK SOOOO... I have baby fever right now!! uuugghh... sometimes it just comes on out of the middle of nowhere! I mean we aren't going to do any thing about it right now, probably not for a while actually..., but I hate it! I wish I could stay home and have babies, and have a big backyard for them to all play in! sigh..... someday?....... So for now I'm just going to suck it up, and love on my sweet little "man" as much as he will let me!!!

Your memory will live on...

Another sweet little baby has been taken to soon... She was the same age as Logan, I can only imagine the pain her family is going through.. please keep them in your thoughts and your prayers. And if you can this saturday the 29th release a purple balloon in her memory at 1 pm. Don't take life for granted, because you just never know...

If you can release a balloon for her another wonderful mom, Emily, http://www.emmydollface.blogspot.com/, created this tag to print out and attach to the balloons, you can also take pictures of you or your family releasing them and email them to Ivy, another wonderful mom, at sissygurl_02@yahoo.com, so they can put something together for Harleys family. You can find more info at http://www.helpharley.blogspot.com/ . Thanks everyone...

Ladies Man...

This right here just proves how fun Mark and Jessicas wedding was! Congrats guys! Enjoy my little ladies man!

The measure of a life...

The measure of a great life is not by how well you were loved,

but by how well you loved others.

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Everything happens for a reason..

This face. It gets me everytime! Andrew and I tried since the day we got married to get pregnant. Things don't always work as planned, and it was hard for me to deal with. Anytime I would see a baby on tv (to much a baby story on my days off!) I would just sit and cry! I wanted what they had soo bad! I would sit and wonder why? why not me, though I secretly new why, I knew if I got my shit together and lost the extra weight I was carrying that it would hopefully happen for us. It was hard to here people ask, when are you going to have kids? If only they knew... It was hard to deal with, I always knew that I wanted to be a mom, have lots of kids, I hated wondering "why me? why not us?" But I never should have doubted. I should have known that when the time is right, whats meant to happen would happen. I was able to lose some of the weight, (with some wonderful help from some great people) and when the time was right and I stopped fretting over it happening, it did. And 3 1/2 years later we got the best news of our lives! Ever since then I have been blessed with that face. And it was the right time, it all happened when it was suposed to, it was the right time, and I couldn't be happier to have such a wonderful little boy! I guess the point of this is that things happen for a reason when the time is right, if it is meant to be, it will be. But we do also need to take responsibilty for the things that we want and do what we can to make them happen. So I know that I need to lose this weight...again, so that if we decide to we can have more children, for my health, to keep up with my very active little boy, for my sanity, for my self esteem, then I need to make it happen, because when you show that you can put in the effort and make it happen then the things that just happen, happen just a little easier! I hope this makes sense... I guess really the moral of this is that I love Logan very much, and I want to be here for him and give him everything he needs in life... like siblings.... if need be it... I don't know, I guess really I am just rambling.. I hope everyone has a great day!