Everything happens for a reason..

This face. It gets me everytime! Andrew and I tried since the day we got married to get pregnant. Things don't always work as planned, and it was hard for me to deal with. Anytime I would see a baby on tv (to much a baby story on my days off!) I would just sit and cry! I wanted what they had soo bad! I would sit and wonder why? why not me, though I secretly new why, I knew if I got my shit together and lost the extra weight I was carrying that it would hopefully happen for us. It was hard to here people ask, when are you going to have kids? If only they knew... It was hard to deal with, I always knew that I wanted to be a mom, have lots of kids, I hated wondering "why me? why not us?" But I never should have doubted. I should have known that when the time is right, whats meant to happen would happen. I was able to lose some of the weight, (with some wonderful help from some great people) and when the time was right and I stopped fretting over it happening, it did. And 3 1/2 years later we got the best news of our lives! Ever since then I have been blessed with that face. And it was the right time, it all happened when it was suposed to, it was the right time, and I couldn't be happier to have such a wonderful little boy! I guess the point of this is that things happen for a reason when the time is right, if it is meant to be, it will be. But we do also need to take responsibilty for the things that we want and do what we can to make them happen. So I know that I need to lose this weight...again, so that if we decide to we can have more children, for my health, to keep up with my very active little boy, for my sanity, for my self esteem, then I need to make it happen, because when you show that you can put in the effort and make it happen then the things that just happen, happen just a little easier! I hope this makes sense... I guess really the moral of this is that I love Logan very much, and I want to be here for him and give him everything he needs in life... like siblings.... if need be it... I don't know, I guess really I am just rambling.. I hope everyone has a great day!